The Mask

They dont see tha pain in her eyes .. Tha sadness in her smile .. Tha tears in her voice .. She masks her true feelings so well that they'd never know something was wrong .. But on tha inside she's broken .. Hurt, torn apart, and alone .. Her self esteem is shot and she feels as if she's nothing .. She gives her all and gets nothing in return except pain and heartache .. Her silent cries go unnoticed because she doesnt want anyone to see her at her weakest .. On tha inside she feels nothing but pain and desolation .. Abused, depressed, and uncared for she feels alone .. Such an emptiness .. A void that cant seem to be filled .. She begs for it to end but knows that she cant go that route again .. Not with someone depending on her to survive .. So she puts on her mask .. She smiles to hide tha sadness .. Barely speaks so yu dont hear tha tears in her voice .. And looks away so yu dont see tha pain in her eyes .. As broken as she is on tha inside she refuses to show it because there are those who depend on her to be strong .. She disguises her sadness and depression with a false happiness because one day she knows that happiness will be hers .. Until then .. She wears that mask and no one will ever know whats really happening on tha inside...
-Ash

How can yu move forward if yu always look back? How can yu reach your destination if you're on tha wrong track?
Things will stay where they are and they'll never be right as long as yu turn to tha darkness instead of tha light.
Yu hide from whats feels right just to cling onto what feels wrong yu dwell on what makes yu feel weak instead of what makes yu strong.
Yu listened to your heart nd since it led yu astray yu put up a wall and let it get in tha way
Tha way of seeing whats best for yu and one day having it turn into something honest and true.
Yu know what yu want in your heart nd mind and yu know what yu need yu dont have to find.
Its already been found its just waiting to see if what it wants to become it should really be.
Not to say that yu have to approach it fast because if yu take your time yu can make it last.
Just make sure when tha good life calls yu dont just let it ring and lose out on true happiness for a not-so sure thing.

Just Cant Get It Right

Tryna do tha right thing tha wrong way .. No direction .. We're just feeling around in tha dark HOPING we get it right .. But we can't .. We fail to see whats important .. To concerned with minor details to get tha big picture .. Trying so desperately .. trying to fix what's broken yet .. We work AGAINST instead of WITH each other .. Always tha same result because we always have tha same problem .. We just can't get it right no matter how hard we try .. Only because we don't try hard enough .. Right place wrong time, wrong place right time .. It doesn't matter .. We just can't get it right ....
-Ash

Funny

Its funny how peoples words dont always add up with their actions .. they'll tell yu one thing while doing another and dont see a thing wrong with it ..
Its funny how tha ones who want a faithful partner are the same ones in multiple "relationships" all at tha same time ..
Its funny how people can say they love yu but can never show tha action .. why use a word if yu dont really know what it means?
Its funny how yu can be there for someone through everything; good, bad, in between .. and they'll never appreciate your effort to be there for THEM ..
Its funny how yu do things to help people nd dont give it a second thought .. but tha second they do something for yu they NEVER let yu forget it ..
Its funny how yu can say something on a social network  and somebody will get offended .. especially when yu didnt even have them in mind when yu said it ..
Its funny that people will lie to everyone, about everything .. but then feelings are hurt when they find out someone hasnt told them tha truth ..
Its funny how people can hurt yu and dont care .. but when life isnt going how they planned they want yu at their pity party ..
Its funny how people can say "i'll always be there for yu" .. but forget to add "until they find something 'better'" ..
Its funny how people will walk out on yu .. and then tell yu how bitter/scorned/spiteful yu are for giving them a hard time when they try to walk back in ..
Tha funniest part of it all is most of us tend to let these things happen .. and then wonder why we always get the same result to the same problem ....

-Ash

#30PoemsIn30DaysChallenge #3

Some people slow to give but quick to take .. never wanna see yu happy so they say and do anything to bring yu down .. spiteful and devious, they always have ulterior motives .. if its not to take tha things yu have, its to steal your smile .. ready to overshadow your otherwise positive life with clouds of doubt grief nd negativity .. but heres tha joke: they only have as much power as yu give them .. YU get to decide if yu gonna give them tha strength to bring yu  down or if yu gonna leave THEM weak and YU strengthened with your joy .. i know what i choose simply because i refuse to let anyone have that kind of power over me .. but what do yu choose, success or demise? -Ash

#30Poems30DaysChallenge #2

Stir these yams but not too quick, take your time with that mixing stick.
These yams need care these yams need time, but when they're ready they'll be sublime.
Yu want these yams baby dont pretend, like yu wont eat em til yu reach tha end.
These yams are yours yu dont have to share, take your time with em baby take care.
They're fine they're great delicious nd dandy, yu might even think that these yams are candied.
They've been simmering so yu cant go wrong, til they're ready it wont be long.
Yams that arent after your pockets so yu wont go bankrupt, they're ready now so #ComeGetTheseYamsWassup?

#30Poems30DaysChallenge #1

Yu make tha easiest things so difficult because yu insecure .. Your insecurity turns into greed .. And that greed will cause yu pain. Yu have everything yu need right in front of yu .. Yet, you're still searching for it .. Easiest way to lose what yu have .. And when yu lose it .. how do plan to get it back? You're out looking for greener grass but not putting time into takin care of tha lawn yu already have .. No maintenance but yu expect it to thrive, and prosper, and grow .. Yu cant reap what yu dont sow .. and farmer, yu haven't being sowing anything so what do yu expect yur harvest to look like? it surely wont be bountiful, i'll tell yu that much .. But yu don't hear me .. Doesn't matter tho .. Those who don't hear will feel .. and those who feel ALWAyS learn.

Parent Your Children

A child is more than just a tax write off .. they're more than just something to brag about when its convenient ... a child deserves to be loved, cared for, protected, nurtured, and taught right from wrong .. no child should ever be or feel neglected, uncared about, unloved, put down, or hurt just because others around them cant control their thoughts, emotions, or actions. if yu take tha time to create a child, yu should put in an equal if not GREATER amount of time to ensure your childs well being .. remember they didnt ASK to be here .. they didnt have a choice on if they wanted to be around or not .. YU made that decision that yu wanted to take up that responsibility so its unfair to tha child for yu to change your mind because its not what yu wanted .. if yu wanted it then yu should want it now .. they shouldnt have to suffer because YU decided yu wanted to be selfish. What if whoever raised yu decided they didnt feel like doing it anymore nd walked out on yu? wouldnt feel too good would it? Being left alone .. abandoned .. no one there for yu .. If yu wouldnt want that for yourself, why would yu want to do that to a helpless, defenseless child? Where is your heart? Do yu even have one to even do something like that? .. All im trying to say is think before yu act; if you're not ready for a child, use protection. dont possibly ruin someone elses life because of your selfish need for satisfaction .. Do unto others nd all that good stuff. -Ash