December 30, 2012

The Mask

They dont see tha pain in her eyes .. Tha sadness in her smile .. Tha tears in her voice .. She masks her true feelings so well that they'd never know something was wrong .. But on tha inside she's broken .. Hurt, torn apart, and alone .. Her self esteem is shot and she feels as if she's nothing .. She gives her all and gets nothing in return except pain and heartache .. Her silent cries go unnoticed because she doesnt want anyone to see her at her weakest .. On tha inside she feels nothing but pain and desolation .. Abused, depressed, and uncared for she feels alone .. Such an emptiness .. A void that cant seem to be filled .. She begs for it to end but knows that she cant go that route again .. Not with someone depending on her to survive .. So she puts on her mask .. She smiles to hide tha sadness .. Barely speaks so yu dont hear tha tears in her voice .. And looks away so yu dont see tha pain in her eyes .. As broken as she is on tha inside she refuses to show it because there are those who depend on her to be strong .. She disguises her sadness and depression with a false happiness because one day she knows that happiness will be hers .. Until then .. She wears that mask and no one will ever know whats really happening on tha inside...
-Ash